A black doctor in Dallas nearly broke down in tears Monday as he described futilely trying to save white police officers shot by Micah Johnson — and struggling with his own past dealings with racist cops.
“I think about it everyday that I was unable to save those cops when they came here that night,” said Dr. Brian Williams. “It weighs on my mind constantly.
“This killing, it has to stop,’’ he pleaded, his voice breaking, during a press conference with other Parkland Memorial Hospital personnel who tended to the victims of Thursday’s massacre.
“The problem is the lack of open discussions about the impact of race relations in this country,’’ said Williams, 47, a top trauma surgeon.
“Black men dying and being forgotten. People retaliating against the people that are sworn to defend us. We have to come together and end all of this,’’ he said.
“First and foremost, I stand with the Dallas Police Department. I stand with law enforcement all over this country. But the preceding days of more black men dying at the hands of police officers affected me. I think the reasons are obvious — I fit that demographic of individuals.
“But I abhor what has been done to these officers and I grieve with their families,’’ he said.
Williams said he tries daily to make his own peace with his struggle.
“I do simple things while I’m out in public. When I see officers eating at a restaurant, I pick up their tab,” he said.
“I want my daughter to see me interacting with police that way so she doesn’t grow up with the same burden that I carry, when it comes to interacting with law enforcement,” he said.
“And I want the Dallas police to also see me, a black man, and understand that I support you, I will defend you and I will care for you.
“That doesn’t mean that I do not fear you. That doesn’t mean if you approach me, I will not immediately have a visceral reaction and start worrying for my personal safety.